Caution-Dark Scary Stuff

[goddess_bb]

My Dark Masterpiece...

Love-Hate Tragedy

Love turned to hate,
What a bitter fate
I stare in the mirror
Facing all my fears
He does not love me, so he said,
Instead he just took me to bed
My love tastes bitter
Never thought I was a quitter
Bottle in hand
I know the plan
This deadly cocktail
Will not fail--
Demons in my head
Telling me I'm better off dead
This is the end
A message to him I send
Blood on the wall
I wrote about my fall
He is to blame
I will never be the same
Love at such a cost
Does he know what he lost?
My love is now hate
Death is my fate.

[goddess_bb]

Non-Entity

Never in my life
Did I think
This would be me
A non-entity
NO one listens
No one cares
The pain deepens
As the rejection cuts
Leaving me weeping
With nothing left
A shattered soul
A broken heart
My world has come apart.

[JulieCitySlicker]

Those are good but Sad Goddess:(

[goddess_bb]

Thank you Julie, you are sweet to read them, I really do appreciate you guys letting me purge...okay one more: thanks again to everyone who does read these for being my willing or unwilling victims to my scary poetry....

Help

Why do I feel like crying
I feel like my soul is dying
Things have got me down again
I think I need a friend
Just when I think I'm okay
I have a day
Like this one
Where it's hard to function
I try to pick myself up
Let go of all this stuff
It's got me so far down
I am on the ground
Won't someone help me
Can't they see
I need help deperately.

[SmEeKy]

I agree with Julie

[JulieCitySlicker]

I like the last one to:P

[goddess_bb]

I don't really think anyone gets my poetry..which is okay...sometimes I don't really get it..I have just relieved to get it out, believe it or not I am not a dark scary person, I can be almost likable sometimes..:lol:

Thank you to Julie, you are too sweet for words and Smeeky..thanks.

[creedgirl99]

I thought those were very good!!!

[goddess_bb]

Has anyone ever felt like they had a out of body experience???
Like something came out of you that surprised you or just that sensation???

[goddess_bb]

Sorry guys in a posting mood--- here's one that is not quite as dark---

(untittled)

Sitting in the sun
not bothering no one
Listening to people as they pass by
Their chatter floats up to the sky
Rather depressed, down
Looking around
Trying to find that elusive peace
I'm tired of the demon's feast
They eat at my soul
It's as black as coal
So I sit here in the sun
It's actually fun--
The light penetrates me
Making me feel happy
The dark goes away--
Now I will be okay.

[SmEeKy]

actually goddess its like Jeany's soul got in me... *sigh*

[goddess_bb]

wow..incrediable smeeky...is Jeany your girl???

[JulieCitySlicker]

Originally posted by goddess_bb
Sorry guys in a posting mood--- here's one that is not quite as dark---

(untittled)

Sitting in the sun
not bothering no one
Listening to people as they pass by
Their chatter floats up to the sky
Rather depressed, down
Looking around
Trying to find that elusive peace
I'm tired of the demon's feast
They eat at my soul
It's as black as coal
So I sit here in the sun
It's actually fun--
The light penetrates me
Making me feel happy
The dark goes away--
Now I will be okay.
I liked that one 2 Goddess:angel: ;)

[SmEeKy]

nah shes not mine :( but I love her, well she doesnt know so thats just the problem. This may sound pretty pathetic but it took me 1 year and 2 months just to talk to her... :embarass: she knows I like her though...

[SmEeKy]

Jeany is very charming... shes the sweetest girl I know

[goddess_bb]

Okay first off...you are NOT pathetic. we have all been there, the person you fall for that seems to be the epitamy of perfection, they speak to your soul they become like your heart..and it hurts cause you want them but they are not yours....been there...

All I can say is that I wish you the very best of luck and know that we are here for you if you need us!!!

[SmEeKy]

Thanks goddess ur so nice :)

[The Lithium]

You now I see keeping everything inside, With you
Even when I close my eyes, I'm with you.....Right SmEeKy?:)

[SmEeKy]

yeah lithium lol

[SmEeKy]

so hows the website comming out, lithium?

[Redeemer]

Originally posted by goddess_bb
I don't really think anyone gets my poetry..which is okay...sometimes I don't really get it..I have just relieved to get it out, believe it or not I am not a dark scary person, I can be almost likable sometimes..:lol:
What's not to get? Hell, I write just like that. Most of the time, anyway. Most of my really good songs are dark and despairing, especially my Top 5 favorite, "Broken". [If ya want to read it, I'll post it, just say the word!!]
Yah, I do like your poetry Goddess...have you ever tried free verse [just writing without rhyming]?? I think your message would come across even stronger if you tried that. Sometimes you lose your writing voice when you're trying to think of a rhyme and you lose the idea you're trying to bring across. Ya know? Okay, maybe I'm confusing you, but...:dunno:
Post some more!!!

Good one, Lith, "With You"! I love that song! How is the website coming? You know you gots to invite me to it when it's done!!! :dancing:

[goddess_bb]

Redeemer...
First off thanks..and actually most of my poetry is free verse I have just been on this rhyming kick lately...and yes POST IT...(your songs) really would love to read em...

here's a example of one of my free verse that I wrote today..in class it was stuck in my head so there I am trying to take notes and every so often write another line of this poem to get it out of my head..:lol:

Toy's Poem
Happiness is a funny thing,
Sometimes it just sneaks up on you,
When you are not looking
Or expecting it
You turn around
and there it is..
You spend so much time-
Being unhappy,
You come to expect it
So when happiness comes
It knocks you over
Straight on your ass
But don't you have a smile?
You just can't help it
Damn it, you're happy!!

[Redeemer]

*lol*! "Damn it, you're happy!!" That's the greatest line ever!
I'll post Broken now. See if you can figure out what song it's based on...

Fatal obsession, sinking in sin
No one to let me out of this cell I’m in
My life is waxing pale, I can see the end
Illusions fade away, death cometh ’round the bend
Silence screaming now, I want to die but I don’t know how
Demons keen and bow, Satan stands tall and proud
I can’t laugh or cry, been forsaken too long
Everything that’s good is gone, all that’s left is wrong

[So I stand alone] In my mind I see the dark
The hate that burns cold and stark
All that I felt leaves its mark
[So I stand alone] Rid my body of a soul
I will never be whole
Sigh as death takes its toll

Try to understand my indifference as I fight the fatal blow
You keep breaking me down, keep my head hanging low
Drag me through human clay, gouge my eyes so I can’t see
Angels condemning me, I can’t hope for life eternally

Broken, left for dead on a cloudy morning, shot in the head
Robbed of salvation, I can’t see the light (repeats)

chorus

They took it away, left me broken and hollowed
To whom it may concern, they’ve crucified me, yeah

chorus

So leave me broken
Broken, left for dead on a cloudy morning, shot in the head
Robbed of salvation, can’t see the light…

Hope somebody, anybody, likes it!! I'm really attached to it, partly b/c of the song it's based on...have you guessed yet??? :D

[goddess_bb]

Freaking INCREDIABLE....Love it......hmmm..I feel like an amatuer in the presence of a GREAT...does it have something to do with ... a fatal obsession that cost you everything including your faith......ohhh damn so moved that I am afraid to say something stupid here... anyways AWESOME Redemmer...

[Redeemer]

Awww, Goddess, thanx!! :dancing: I was really hoping you'd like it. Don't feel like an amateur...your stuff is great too, and you're on your way to Ultimate Goddess-hood! :lol: That's a really good interpretation of the song..."a fatal obsession that cost you everything including your faith" "Broken Part II" really is the one that deals with obsession...if you want I can post that too!! :D

[souldancer]

Lots of talent on this board! And, what a great forum to share personal material with others that are respectiful and supportive. I will have to sneak back in this Creative forum more often..to be touched by you great writers! Thanks for posting your work here...
Right On! Write On!

[goddess_bb]

Thank you Souldancer...

Redeemer..yes that would be really cool..post away..please..

[goddess_bb]

Okay this one is off the top of my head so guarantees...

Sometimes I think I really hate him
This man I once thought was my prince
Now he is just annoying and demanding
All he does is take and take
I swear I am through, outta here
But then I look into my baby's eyes
I put the suitcase away
And give it one more try~~

Another...

~Drowning~
I am drowning
under the weight
of these issues,
The harsh reality
bites and draws blood,
I had forgotten
I could still bleed,
For a moment
I had been numb,
Hey I was Superwoman
Out conquering the world,
I didn't feel, I just did
Till my crash back to reality
Where I am buried alive,
Under the oppression,
of things I can't control.

[Redeemer]

Ya can't be Superwoman forever! One day ya gotta crumble!
Here's Broken Part II....

Fatal obsession, I’m drowning in this
Can I even hope for the taste of one kiss?
Can I even breathe when I hear his voice
I’m nearing the end, I have no choice
Can’t hold the illusion still, I’m sinking now, against my will
I’ll be subject to him until Satan comes to steal my soul
Love is untrue, I said, only lust remains
But I question now just what my heart contains

[And I fall] Something in me waxes cold, feel my soul has been sold
Should I let the truth be told
[And I fall] Demons come to rape my heart, laugh while I am torn apart
Leave me crying in the dark

A bittersweet hour when I see him, wishing I could drift and die
The only one who can take me higher leaves me yearning, cold and dry
My life is waxing pale, don’t understand why this should be
He leaves without a word, I can’t hope for life eternally

Grant me one word, one look, one motion, I am falling
Stabbed in the heart and tossed away

chorus

I cry out to him, held captive by emotion
To whom it may concern, I’ve been crucified, yeah

chorus

And I fall once again
Grant me one word, one look, one motion, I am falling
Stabbed in the heart and tossed away

Not as good as Broken, but it kinda sounds the same. And it's based on the same song. Enjoy! :dancing:

[goddess_bb]

Redeemer,
Again simply awesome...I absolutly love the depth of emotion in your poetry...
Not that I could ever compete with your talent but I wrote a poem awhile ago that kind of reminds me of the emotion of yours.. see what you think??

Part of me wept for the sheer joy of the moment,
and part of me wept for the moment that had passed
The hope, expectation was gone,
that you could ever be mine
I weep for the woman I once knew,
the one before you...


YOUR TURN...:D

[goddess_bb]

My current personal favorite:

~~RAIN~~
When the tears finally came,
They ran down my face like rain,
It all came out-
All my fears and doubt
So many reasons to cry
I keep asking why?
Is happiness so hard to attain?
What ever became?
Of the girl with the world at her feet
Everything was hers to seek
Now I am nothing
Searching for something-
That will never be
I wish my heart would see
How futile this quest
My life is such a mess!
Inside of me are the many tears
That hide all my fears.

[creedgirl99]

That was great! You know, you really should try to publish some of these!!! :)

[goddess_bb]

Thank you Creedgirl..that is really flattering..don't think they are that good..that is really sweet though..thanks!!

[Redeemer]

*deflates* Pffff, ran out of songs. :lol:
Plus, I'm not on my hard drive right now, so I can't copy and paste. :( Oh, bummer. That little poem you wrote was short and concise, but it stated its point. I like that. I mean, I like long poems, but not long poems that ramble. Ya know?? :D

[goddess_bb]

Long poems tend to lose me along the way...I don't think I have ever really written anything very long...

Would love to hear anything you have Redemmer..it bugs me when ppl post poems or whatever but do not look at others work and be involved in the sharing process...grrrr...

[Redeemer]

Yeah, that sucks. Well guess what, today's my last day on the Internet for a while (school's letting out) so I can't post OR read!! :crying: Have a fantabulous summer, goddess!! Keep writing!! :dancing:

[goddess_bb]

Miss you redeemer..looking foward to hearing all you have written over the summer!! Take care!

[PaulMcCoygirl]

goddess these are really good! It's a good thing you get it out, sometimes that can be the only way you know. Anyway good job! :)

[goddess_bb]

It's my sanity-saver..do you write PaulMcCoygirl??

[goddess_bb]

~the end~
I just want to lay down and die
I am so empty I can't even cry
My world is so dark
And I am so alone
I tried I really did
To be better
I reached out only to be rejected
I just can't take anymore
If this is what life is then I am done
I am so unimportant I doubt I will be missed
Why did I get put on this earth
To live in such pain and misery
If that is the truth
Then I am going to end it
I am done~~

~~When you loved me...
When you loved me
I could smile
the world was so beautiful
full of promise of things to come
Now you don't love me anymore
I am so broken and defeated
the world is black and dark
nothing is left to come but
more misery...
When you loved me
I was so happy
My heart was light
I walked on air
Now you don't love me anymore
I wonder if I will survive
I feel so worthless
You took everything with you
When you left...
When you loved me
I knew my purpose
the world was right
Now you don't love me anymore
and I am so lost and alone
nothing is right anymore
When you loved me
I thought you always would
But you don't love me anymore
Maybe you never did
I know I will always love you
With my last breath I will whisper your name
When you loved me
What I wouldn't give to go back
For you to hold me just for a moment
To be alive again,
Now I am dead
for you don't love me anymore.

[PaulMcCoygirl]

Originally posted by goddess_bb
It's my sanity-saver..do you write PaulMcCoygirl??

No I don't because I'm not as creative as you are. :) Listening to music helps me get through some hard times so that's my sanity saver. :P

[goddess_bb]

I don't know if I would call mayself creative...maybe just depressed...lol. Music is medication to my soul...writting and listening to Metallica or something of that sort gets me through the bad days...


-the ebbs and flows
of this life--
are what are going
to kill me--
the low is soo low
the high is so high--
I just want to be
somewhere in the--
--middle--

[JulieCitySlicker]

Hi Goddess!
Long time no see:P I hope your doing well:hugs: :hugs: :hugs: I see your leeping busy writing your cool poems though:cool: :) :dancing:

[HESTLA'S HONEY]

Hey goddess,

These are wonderful pieces!! They are sad but poignantly so. Brilliantly posed!! Very rich in detail and depth. I like them all but "Love-Hate Tragedy" speaks to me the most!

I especially love the lines:

"...I wrote about my fall
He is to blame
I will never be the same
Love at such a cost
Does he not know what he lost?
My love is now hate
Death is my fate... "

These are very powerful words!!

I look forward to reading more from you!!

~Hestla's Honey~:)