Scarlet Punishment

[Torn Signs]

Scarlet Punishment

I sit on the sidelines,
See my friend in pain,
So much torment and loss in her face.
She cries because her family abused her.
She wonder’s because she’s never been worth anything in all her years.

I sit on the sidelines,
See my friend worrying about me,
The pierce of the reality I have gone through haunts his face.
I run away from all I’ve known.
Goodbye family,
Goodbye you,
My ever-understanding friend.
For we’re on each other’s sidelines.

I see her run to the car across the street,
A 1988 Chevrolet with dents on its door.
She takes one last glance, then used the wires and revs it up.
Stealing-
Stealing my car away,
Stealing my heart away,
All because I stand on the sidelines.


The tears flood my face.
I feel like such a disgrace.
I leave it all behind for there was nothing there for me.
I see my loss augmenting his.
Nothing, nothing here for me.
I rev it up and drive off before I even think about the cops,
Leaving him standing alone,
Because he was on the sidelines.

The car is gone.
She is gone.
I’ve never known so much confusion.
The perplexity is flooding me.
She was hurt,
I never listened.
Now I’m bound with a new web of misconception.
Because I stood on the sidelines.

In the middle of my path I halt the car.
The before me stands my father.
He died in the Vietnam,
Just a year after I was born.
He wrote in his journal-
I never stood on the sidelines for it ruined my soul.
My friend was about to be shot by the enemy,
Instead I decided to run in front of the metal shard and let my own soul be the devil’s bought.
For my daughter, I have but a few days left,
Be brave and never stay on the sidelines.

I’m alone now,
My house bare of all breathes.
My judgment is distorted,
My mind ablaze,
The anger of my insipidity-
Of how ludicrous I was.
I dig through my dresser and search for my gun.
In my hand it is death’s bringing,
Just one step away because I lost her by standing on the sidelines.

I veer my car away from the illusion,
Thanking God for the reminder.
I don’t worry about my mother, my brother, or my abusive Uncle John.
Put aside my selfishness for it is the end of my sidelines.

I take a slow breath,
Put my finger on the trigger,
Take aim to my head.
It’ll all be over,
All be over,
These sidelines they’ll lead me to interacting with the devil.
My frown grins,
The devil-
A punishment for being on the sidelines,
For never being there for her.

I steer the car back to his house,
Slam the driver door.
The sidelines are ending.
I yell his name as I bolt to the front yard.
I tell him I’m sorry for putting him in such misery.

My hand quavers,
The gun still remains,
Her voice.
It comes through the window-
Her voice.
I could end the sidelines many ways now!

I look around in a frantic,
Find the front door handle,
I pull and yank,
It would not open!
I swear,
Again I roar his name.
He could not leave me because I stood on the sidelines!

I walk to the window and look down at her.
I used the butt end of the gun and soar it along with my quavering fist through the glass.
I observe her- shaken and worried.
She glances up and spots me.
Her eyes lower as she feels around in her vest.
She yelps my name once more,
That her father was always right,
She was sorry for staying on the sidelines.
I stumble on my foot and grab the edge of the window’s frame,
Half of my body gaping out the window-
My gun,
It points at her.
She glares at me,
Then begins to weep.
Out of her vest she pulls a revolver.
She says it was her father’s,
He liked it for hunting and self-protection.
She aims it at me,
I quaver once again.

My tears flood even more as it comes to an end,
His hand pointing the shard shooter me.
I croak,
I put my hand on the trigger.

We shot simultaneously.

Now we’re together, my beautiful girl.
Out of the sidelines, my understanding male friend.
-In our everlasting scarlet punishment.
-The end of the sidelines,
The beginning of much crimson regret,
For forever we have missed the chance to be,
In God's hands.

Just hope it ain't too much like anyone else's. I got confused on how to end it cuz I had to go do stuff and was in a rush. Peace out,

[MrSeeker]

Awesome Kim! It did remind me of one I wrote,hmmm...hehehe...coolness. Keep up the good work!