i kno she has a problem trusting people, thats why i am SO angry at myself,
but if she thinks about how well we get on and how alike we are and everything we have been through then hopefully she can find it in her to forgive me,
and i kno it will take time for her to rebuild her trust in me,
but if she doenst want to then, i fully understand
its just i miss her and am nothing without her.