I would make that your mission, look online, look in the papers. Have you thought about going to school for anything? You like to cook, go to school to be a chef, they make big bucks!!! The important thing is do something you like! I think if you go on this track everything else will fall into place!
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"I don't want to know emptiness, take me down to the water wanna be baptized in your love far away from the lonliness, take my heart and wash away the fear let me be baptized in your love"
~Lenny Kravitz
"Baptized"
