[Rulesdontapply]

I’m giving into myself
Believing my own lies
Feeding this pain
And I hate myself for this
I hate my words
Talking myself into this
The reasons I find from hope
But there is no reason
It is only hope
A wish from my heart
But I also hate my heart
I hate that it loves
Because in loving it will hurt
And only pain comes from love
And pain lives in me always
All of my days
Wasted because of love
Every day loved comes thousands on my own
With my heart of stone
And I don’t want to be alone
I want to love you
I want to need you
But I know ill bleed for you
And you will wash your hands of it
Pretending I’m ok
And ill pretend I don’t care
But ill still want you there
And ill know you don’t need me
And of all this I will never be free
A circle in the shadows
But the lies of it are flattering
Crowning it with pride
And in the shadows it will hide
Loving the vision of itself
But knowing itself far to well
Knowing to linger in shadows
And there it stays
Waiting for me
Wanting me
Loving to hate me