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This may be a long one.....please bear w/me.....
It's more than 24hours since the show and I finally get a chance to watch the video. Sigh....I want to stay positive and no, I don't know what is really going on except for what I read here and see w/my eyes through the TV. But, I have just have to say I will be going to bed w/a heavy heart tonight. I could just sense how difficult that was for Scott. Yes, the show rocked and I was still bobbing up and down in my living room. But, I could hear how his voice was straining and there was just this feeling of not being able to get it out, and also a feeling of tension in the band in general. I'm sorry...I don't want to put out any more negativity and I am trying to stay supportive....but, it really hurts me and I just had to reach out to my friends here and say this. I guess it's so hard to see him going through these changes because I need him to be the fighter for me. I know that sounds ridiculous. Please forgive me, but I have had some really hard times and sometimes Creed's music is the ONLY thing (or one of the few) that gets me through. I can't count how many times I have been driving in my car, tears streaming and singing my lungs out to the music. And, somehow, when I get to where I'm going I am able to handle it....it's like his voice has helped me to pass through a storm. So, when I see him struggling, when I read about drugs and breakdowns, etc....I get really sad. Of course, I want him to be a human being....I'm not expecting a God here...I have one of those already. I just feel a little lost w/o his strong voice there. Does this sound totally pathetic? I'm sure I'll feel better in the morning. I have many other strengths inside which I tap into as welll, and MUCH to be grateful for. And, I'll keep sending my love to him and back at me and, just see what happens. I'm sure we'll all be rocking w/this band, and in our own lives much more in the future. Until then, breathing through this "weather" and connecting w/the peace inside as often as possible. Thanks so much for listening....
God bless you,
Karin
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