CreedFeed Community - Id say this is my best yet : enter the abbyss

here is the inspiration for this. I went on a date a few nights ago and things went well. then over the weekend something happened with my date and she blogged about how everything in her life is shit and how she just wants to be left alone and is on edge. I went from High to low after i called her prior to knowing all this and she hungup on me. later she emailed me and told me she hungup because she was afraid of saying something mean to me. im giving her the space she needs and i need space as well given that my grandfather will die this week . anyways its a real downer but know that I am optimistic of this and I have never truly felt the way the lyrics sound. In fact i feel i have more direction in my life than ever.

Enter the Abbyss

I want to meet you at the shore
been a while since ive felt alive
I want to dance with you there
been a while since i've shared life
The fire in your eyes is it my guide
or does this torch burn for another
to be welcomed with remorse
and hung up for trespassing

Im circling round beaten back to the past
no direction , subject to the wind
dark clouds cover the celestrial guide
Im lost at sea tonight

I kissed the land
next to your footprints in the sand
leading away from this day
a homecoming , a hallucination
Im back and your not here
flat affect and flat world
will I sail off the edge tonight
or enter the abyss once more
alone to drown these sorrows

Im circling round beaten back to the past
no direction , subject to the wind
dark clouds cover the celestrial guide
Im lost at sea tonight

lonliness is killing me
scurvy of the soul
no dream can feed
Im seeing you again
looking through a clouded lens
an image in my mind
that confirms all my fear
you are less than I thought
you are nowhere near