I was bullied a lot in school to Kim :mad: I remember going home from school bauling all the time cuz of the way I was treated and I took it out on my family mostly cuz I couldn't do anything about it, I was to afraid to stick up for myself. I would go right to my room and barely left it. My family was really worried for me for a while there because I never left my room. I have days still now that I just avoid people cuz I just get tired of everybody sometimes, I'm not much of a people person outside of coming here and to the other boards I go to because of that to. I've never tried to hurt myself ever deliberately but I have been suicidal many times.

my parents didnt/doesnt even/ have the slightest clue that I was bullyied in Jr. High...

Julie, I sincerely hope you are ok now. Mercy, kids can be soooo mean. I read in Reader's Digest last year what people are doing to fight back against bullies. They are training kids to join together with the victim and fight back against the bully. It has had a significant impact. I actually approached the counselor at my kids' school last year about it, but she blew it off. :mad:

I tried overdosing (many, many times) before...I would always go to bed praying that I wouldnt wake up the next morning....I was even thinkin about doing something else ...but I dont really want to mention it...

Kim, it is obvious you are hurting and I am glad you are talking to us. Please, consider getting some help. I am confident that the people here will support you but you really need somone near you to help. This is very serious.

Are you able to promise us right now that you won't do anything to hurt yourself for the next 48 hours?

I'm doing ok with it now :) I still get pissed off if I think about it or if someone asks me about school and all though :mad: That is a good idea to have somrthing like that in the schools! I really wish someone thought about that when I was in school :rolleyes: I was the only black girl in my school and I really wished I wouldn't had the guts to knock the crap out of some punks at my school :)

Kim as you can see we have all struggled with crap in the past. I think people are trying very hard to rally around you here and give you some hope that things will get better. Aren't we everyone????

Darn right Julie :dancing:

Yes, we really do care Kim. It's sincere. Let us help you, ok? You're worth a lot. You may not feel it now, but we really do. It's good that you're talking to someone. Stick with us kid.

well bascially heres how it is.

highschool may suck right now. but it will end.
and hwen it does all that means nothing. you go on to collage, meet new people see new people. You get a good job, meet someone you like. mayby even get married or have kids someday. move to a new home, make neigbour friends, and look back thinking "god if i killed myself i would have lost all of this"
People ge tto caught up in the "present" than in teh future, suicide or suicide attemps can only make it worst, bad times will come, and ive had a few in times, but tehy will pass. After highschool is over, all that popularity and shit means NOTHING. your all on your own, and you move to different places to meet new people and get a new job or whatever. IF your feeling really bad, an actual good thing to do is read the bible. It may sound stupid or pointless, but it actually does help you in times of need.
Dont throw away now, what you may have later. 2 years of hell can be worth 56 years of heaven.

And I appreate it too...really !!

I might not show it ...but I really do..

Can you please do what Julie asked you though, 48 hours? please.

yes I will

Thank you Kim! Thank you. I'm praying for you. It could help. It can't hurt. Kim, keep talking to us, please. We are all concerned and care. I hope you know it's sincere. Chill out tonight. Listen to Creed and breathe. Love ya kid.

awesome - that is good to hear. keep in touch here - we will be here to support you.