My Ridiculed Garden
 

My Ridiculed Garden

a downward spiral
soulless
and numbed by pain
and the questions why
I walk through my ridiculed garden
where my flowers are whithering

and I wanna rape you
like you raped me
and I wanna kill you
like you killed me
but all I hear is
frozen silence
death of god

so what is there left to see
a betrayal I call my life
living under a murderers knife
every day a part of me
fades away
and this time I'm gonna change

loneliness
my destiny
a loving embrace between me and me
I wasn't made to follow
and that's why I get to swallow

this time I'll learn
not to get attached to anything
this world won't let me own a thing
and that's why
I'll throw it all away
I'll learn to play this game